Selective reduction?

   My first appointment was early in the morning, it was in Portland which is about an hour away! Gabe and I didn't know what to expect from this trip, but we were pretty excited to confirm there was three humans growing in my belly. We were anxiously awaiting the ultrasound results still thinking the first Dr got it wrong!
   We were seen shortly after arriving. I had to be weighed, pee in a cup you know all the joys of pregnancy! We went into the ultrasound room I laid on the table and we started looking for babies. By now they were a lot bigger then before. I was 15 weeks by now.
   The tech pointed to each baby and we saw three heartbeats once again. We confirmed no more no less just three little humans! They checked their growth their fluid and their cord flows and everything was checking out.
    After the ultrasound we went to meet with my Dr. He was a younger guy but when he talked you could just hear how intelligent he was. Now going into this appointment I didn't know what to expect, for some reason I didn't think we were going to go over so many risk factors for this pregnancy.
    My Dr hit us with things like increased risk of low birth weights, preclampsia, gestational diabetes, placental abruption, preterm labour, losing one or more babies the list goes on and on. I knew carrying more then one baby was going to be hard but this was making it sound impossible.
   Then the Dr talked to us about slective reduction. This is brought up when your pregnant with three babies or more. I had no idea what this term ment. My Dr explained that due to all the risks and complications that can happen during this pregnancy we can choose to reduce down to a twin pregnancy or a singleton pregnancy. I was baffled when the Dr was explaining this to us. You mean we can choose to have just one baby. The Dr said yes it's a procedure done that reduces one or two babies, your body would absorb the baby and your risks for this pregnancy would be greatly lowered.
    We were speachless after the Dr was done explaining all the details. I just looked at Gabriel and he looked at the Dr and said no we're not going to reduce.  The Dr said that's fine I have until my 18 week appointment to make my decision but the sooner the  better.
    After my appointment Gabe and I talked about it more, and the more we talked about it the more assurance we had that we didn't want to reduce. I mean how can you choose what baby to keep? So this just wasn't an option for us.
   Leaving that appointment any excitement I had was gone. I was actually scared. Gabe and I had to discuss if one baby is falling behind and the other two are thriving do we deliver in hopes to save all three or do we just take our chances. Also if it comes down to it who do they save, me or our babies?  This really showed us the big picture and the next months were going to be a bumpy ride.
    A couple days after the appointment we decided to go ahead an announce that we were having triplets. I mean there was only so long I could hide my growing belly.  So we took a picture of our oldest son wearing a big brother shirt and posted it!!!